Really?

You know what they say. "You lose a few, you gain a few", it's not true. Gaining something as a replacement is never as good as the original. I want them back. Hi?

"Just keep me where the light is" - John Mayer

Peter.

Where I'm at.

I recently discovered after many hours of thinking that I tend to blog in different phases according to my current living situation. My mind has drifted to something new and old at the same time. It brings back memories which create new ones. When something becomes more something always lessens. The vast open fields of thought have been closed to the countless hours of smashing pixels to the ground. I suppose when I'm not blogging I'm doing something even less productive. The last few weeks of my holidays are running away from me. Maybe it's time to start something new.

To be honest I'm really afraid of my new role as a Youth leader. I'm afraid that what I say may not be one hundred percent correct at times. I really need to work on it I suppose. It's all far to new for me. I guess I'll find out sooner or later if I dived in to it too fast.

That's where I'm at right now I suppose, I don't usually blog like this, just saying everything out right that is. I just guess my lack of thought in recent days hasn't allowed me to do so. This will have to do for now.

"Say what you mean, and mean what you say" - Jeremy Van

Peter.

Why?

The young boy sat there watching the waves demolish the last of the once great fortress. The natural flow of the monstrous rush of water is drawn by the gravity of the great night light taking out everything in its path. Extraordinary oranges and dark reds flooded the skies as the source of light begins to drift behind the horizon. The boy closes his eyes and allows his mind to embrace the moment with the warm sand between his fingers and crisp breeze blowing through his hair. He thinks to himself with his eyes still shut "I wonder if she's still watching me. Heh, that letter still makes me happy".

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In every beautiful situation it is the matter of detail which draws the artists master piece. If only my articulation ability and vocabulary could describe what I see in my mind. I guess for now this will have to do.

I write as though she is still reading it. That's why.

"U do"- Big sister

Peter.

Get it?

Curiousity is an amazing thing. It allows humans to be able explore everything beyond its surface level. Without it the amazing world of technology would never exist and the human anatomy would be a myth only God would know. But we have been blessed with this strange ability. Are there times though where we might be too curious? It could possibly lead to criminal acts and things similar to that. We can say that if we weren't curious there wouldn't be crime. Interesting thought.

We all have it some more than others. The simple things when noticed are often not as simple as it seems. It's almost as though humans have developed an unspoken language where one message could have a completely obvious meaning but infact be intended to mean something completely different, and only that person would be able to pick it up. Other times it can be something that anyone can pick up but they'd have to make the effort too depending on how curious they are.

It's all about how it's said or addressed, what font they used, whether or not they used caps and their social standing. I was actually surprised to find that there was a correct way to email a person depending on their position in society and an email can be deemed rude if it does not respect the rules of emailing. It'll probably hit me when I'm older writing an email to my boss to make sure I don't get fired.

For those who notice the little things, they are in a sense more curious than others. But at the same time it could be a bad thing because then you notice everything bad and that could really dishearten you. And simple gestures could be miss interpretted at the hand of overinterpretting something. It's probably just better to ask I suppose.

Person A: Don't you get it?
Person B: There is nothing to get.
Person A: No that's not what I mean, nevermind.

Humans are indeed very interesting, too understand anyone completely can only truly be done by the handiwork of the Father. I'm glad that there is limitless things to discover and be thankful about. Now I wonder why does it rain so much in summer nowadays?


"I am the one who will swallow his pride, life as the man on the side" - John Mayer

Peter.

Up, up and We stay.

The nature of people is that we are constantly seeking people who will make us feel as though everything we are doing is right. It's natural I suppose because it gives us a lift. But when told otherwise we automatically neglect and push away. It's almost as though we have adopted the life of a seagull, where we only ever take what we like over what is actually good for us and well we all know they always come back for more. More often than not the only reason we do push others away is because they are right and it's very confronting. It's worse I suppose when we think we know but we don't actually know what we know to be true. If I were a bird I'd take a chip over bird seeds any day I suppose. Satisfying for the moment but not good for the long term. Sigh I guess if you want to help anyone in life you best not feed the birds.

"I won't always be alone" - John Mayer

Peter.