Stupid Mouth.

Talking too much ? It's like you've made the point but you continually blabber on it even though it is pretty much repeating yourself over and over. Like for a situation where you might have been helping has changed into an awkward situation where they are still in dire situation taking in too much of the same thing. Just like pain killers, you only ever take the prescribed amount, too much can be lethal. If you ever argue "I'm only trying to help" it just shows that you are trying to lift yourself up further taking advantage of the situation in an attempt to lift your standing in that relationship while little if not nothing has changed for them. Sigh it's so hard to assist others these days isn't it?

The phone is dialing as she eagerly waits for him to pick up. After a few moments she hears the pre-recorded message of the phone operator "The person you are trying to call is unavailable". Her heart drops and tears flow from her eyes. She lies on down on her worn down lounge and ponders on a loop of thoughts of what she may have done wrong. No conclusion.

The worst feeling is knowing that you've done something wrong but having no idea what you did wrong. Even worse when the communication is broken and you never find out. Tell me damit!

Do I say too much in my blogs? Maybe it's time to end it.

“I'm never speaking up again, starting now" - John Mayer

Peter.

Flustered at best.

When you think everything is ideal, the world will continually prove you wrong. One moment you are ok and it takes only one little thing to make it all mean nothing. Now is it me or you?

"Covered in rain" - John Mayer

Peter.

The Parting.

I don't know if anyone has recognised this before but just a little thing which I noticed, is that the normal definition of apart is "separated or at a distance in place or position or time" according to google, but when you split the two syllables you actually get "a part" which is the exact opposite of its original meaning. When you part apart you get the definition of being part of something.

I have too much time on my hands.

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Person A: Hi, how are you?
Person B: I'm good, you?
Person A: Same.
Person B: Cool

Ever had this msn convo before? Don't deny it I know you have. Probably recently too. I wonder why that those who tend too have good social lives fail at having a proper conversation via instant messenger. You would think it would make it easier. Maybe instant messenger is just meant for those who fail in their social lives. I don't get it.

"You'll be on my mind, for-ever" - Norah Jones

Peter.

Speech!

I could to ___ them but not to you. Now I can __ to you but not to them. Ironic isn't it.

"Gravity, Stay the hell away from me" - John Mayer

Peter.

Note: You fill in the gap.

The Best

The best friendships are never declared.

The best relationships are never declared.

They just are.

Only one thing is needed to be declared, and that is my God is an awesome God. Even if he was undeclared you just know He is so great, I mean for one if it weren't for him I wouldn't even be on the internet. Blessings oh the blessings so much for so little really.

I never really in my heart of hearts look for love, but I do want it. I'm still learning to want to love what is important to me everyday of my life. One step at a time I suppose.

"Just keep swimming" - Dory

Peter.

I don't know.

Do you get this feeling? The feeling like every girl you like seems like she is "the one". It's weird because so many times we trick ourselves because our emotional attachment to this person makes you believe that they are the absolute best thing in the world and often you are convinced that she is the one to die for. I mean I guess it's a trap we all fall into, once I met someone talked to her about three times maybe and I was convinced for the next three months that she's the one I'm meant to be waiting for. Oh how wrong I was. How do you really know who "the one" is when every time you are convinced that they are it? I guess maybe it's just better to love everyone the same with kindness and sincerity. We can only hope for the best I suppose. We all need it and want it but I'd rather have the right love over anyones love, we just need to be patient.

"My dear we're, slow dancing in a burning room" - John Mayer

Peter.

Ps. I want it.

Hi.

I don't feel like saying hi today. Seems pointless to even try.

"'tis all" - Chi Trinh

Peter.

According to facebook

After hours of contemplating of the many ways to describe ones self, one cant help but turn to self indulging lazy methods of extracting who someone "really" is. So here is me according to facebook.

I am an expert on women
I am going to die drowning
I am an angel in human form
I am going to get 100% on my Psychology midyear
My ideal career is McDonald's Employee
I am "The sober one"
My awesome level is 70%
I am lead on the periodic table
I am Razor (dota hero)
I have a northern american accent
My real age is 16 years old
I am the fatty in my group of friends
I am 8 out of 10 on the geek level correlating the score of a gamer
I am a tom boy
I have a yellow aura
My love quote on facebook is "If i say i hate you it really means i love you"
Is a fan of:
- Being Awesome
- Slurpees!
- Mi Goreng
- Being Lazy
- theiheartrevolution
- Spot
- Texas Hold'em Poker
- Philip DeFranco
- Jackie Chan
- Chris Tucker
- HappySlip
- Hamish & Andy
- Hamish Blake
- Jay Chou
- Leeland
- John Mayer

"Hello world this is me" - Saddle Club

Peter.

Taking on water

These are the lyrics of an unreleased song from John Mayer "Taking on water". Sometimes we go and try something new and fantastic, but often we tend to drift and forget our purpose or reason. This song is exactly that and it just expresses that a little hope will go a long way we just need to trust those who love us and he who loves us to eventually bring us home.

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On a sailboat I am,
Slowly floating nowhere,
Lost the memories of where I am and why.

Black ocean churning,
A million stars are burning,
Planetariums were right about the sky.

Once upon the day I set off on the journey,
Wishing on the wind take me far from home,
Now I'm on the waves,
And I'm taking on water, hard to see,
I won't always be alone.

There was a time when August sun was high and centered on me,
but it dipped behind my back and settled down.
Used to square up to the land, used to size it in my hand,
but it fell behind the line that meets the sky.

Once upon the day I pushed off on the journey,
Wishing on the wind to take me far from home,
Now I'm on the waves ,
And I'm taking on water, hard to see,
I won't always be alone.

Inside this storm whipping in the wind,
my sail is torn.
In other words, the ends are never not my own,
Hard to see I won't always be alone.

On a sailboat I am,
Slowly floating nowhere,
Hoping someday I wash up on someone elses shore...

"Who says I can't be free" - John Mayer

Peter.

Finding Love.

Wednesday, 6th of January, 2010.

Completed at 4:40 AM

Location: VECA Melbourne Church

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There are many things I could say as right now my mind is simple beyond me. To say that I'm in love would be completely ridiculous as I know in the end it is just another excuse for the human want of approval. I can't seem to solve it. I look everywhere and find nothing. I'm still wanting, still needing even though I've said many times that I've given up. When actually Love is found wherever you want it to be found. Not literally, but when you being to count the blessings and good things around you, Love just seems to be a little more obvious. It's just someone had to love you enough to give you that blessing and well eventually it just leads to the one true love. I'm lost, not because I don't have a map or a GPS, but simply because I'm still untangling my way through the mazes of blessing to which at the end leads back to all I've ever wanted. It's hard, but I know for sure that it's worth it. But for now I at least hope she's ok, maybe she needs someone to count her blessings with her. We just need to open our eyes.

"I am Love" - God

Peter.